I haven't shot a roll of film in probably 10 years.
I learned my love of photography on a Pentax K1000, 26 years ago and I’ve had an itching to get out that old camera and go back to those moments in time when shooting a roll of film was about nothing--and everything. It was all I ever wanted to do.
So recently, I went and bought a roll of B&W film. I felt like a little kid. It was so exciting talking to the store owner about developing and printing my photos myself again, the old way. I was back in my element and it felt so comfortable. That little box of film made me so happy.
The next weekend, with my kids and a friend in tow, I headed off to spend time in a cabin. A perfect place for me and my roll of film. The kids thought my old Pentax was a cool little camera and they were surprisingly understanding when I couldn’t take 10 pictures of the same exact thing without wasting my roll of film. I had to rely on my skills to get it right the first time. Out of habit, I kept wanting to view the back of the camera but there was no image to look at. I would have to wait until the film was developed.
After taking a couple of pictures, remembering the feel of the camera, all those little dials with their numbers, my instincts kicked in and all the fun of shooting came flooding back to me. I discovered something I had lost so long ago. These pictures didn't have to be perfect, the moment was already perfect. I just had to capture how that moment felt. I didn’t need to look at every picture the instant I took it. The freedom to just shoot was something I didn't realize I needed so badly, a renewed excitement I wanted to bring to my work to trust my instincts.
I will be shooting a lot more film. I already have a roll of color loaded in the camera.
I'm Jennifer Beavers photographer in Allen, TX.